My friend was right

Parkinson's Disease Symptoms
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Emotional support needed .
I had an old friend over last night for a visit. I’ve known her for a long time, we met at work (big box retailer) about 15 years ago. She saw me pretty close to my worst, when I had to stop working. (Age 37) As we chatted, she remarked how homey and comfortable my house is, which felt like a high compliment. I told her that I’m now the lady that we used to hate, the ones who had such trivial concerns, and talked about them ad nauseam at the cash register. We saw every day. We saw them as privileged upper class, pampered, shallow, without substance. We joked at how I now say things like, "I’ve been looking for the right lighting fixture forever, I’m soooooo busy with my volunteer work, stuff like that.

She said that maybe the universe is balancing my life of relative ease since I suffered for so long before. She said for all I’ve been through, I deserve peace.

Just to drive it home, my meds didn’t start working until 5 pm today, a stark reminder of what I’m really living with. It isn’t a privilege to get a break from time to time.
I don’t know why I’m posting this, really. Just looking for support, and understanding.

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I absolutely agree with your friend. A peaceful life is what we need to be living so that we pace ourselves and keep a minimal stress load. The hardest thing I find, is trying to convince myself of that. I go at everything with gumption!
I recently gave up my little dog business as I’ve completely underestimated how busy I’d be and had completely burnt out. When my head finally got round the fact that’s what I needed to do to make life simpler and less stressful, and believe me, it took awhile, I’m now looking forward to moving to my new house and decorating, shopping for bits, at my own pace, and for me. Just because we might have more time on our hands, just because we can go for coffee or lunch or stroll around the park does not mean we are ‘lucky’. We are poorly and preservation of our health is key. So enjoy your time, your shopping for light fittings, and anything else that makes you happy. Sending love and strength.